Afternoon guys.. I was this morning in a quite moody state n i asked myself this question that often comes to my mind, what more can i do to secure myself firmly in the cohorts of the heavenlybounds n something came on each and every moment in my mind questioning me and putting me to test.. It said to me you are no near enough to think of that for yeah you are heavenly bound yet you can do exactly nothing to earn yourself a place there only by a divine help..
Ephesians 1:3-10..talks about this predestine adoption and selection that the good God did so that we may enjoy the grace but still I felt i would do something..
2nd Corinthians 13:5..examine yourself, test yourself weather you are in the faith.. Yeah it s all out there guys.. I just need to put myself on the scale of test you Know..we are made with the capa sure for we all know when we err n when we are right.
Many at times we have hear summons n readings, quotes hear n there but what about you talking to you n putting yourself to the test brethren.. You know what you abhor as a believer n you know what you like..how do you create n atmosphere where the judge ain’t someone else but you.. Put yourself in an evaluation n ask yourself all this questions.. Are you surely walking this walk for you sincerely know no doubt.
We often at times tried to subject other intriguing n scotching Verses unto Perversion to suit us morally yet we all know what the meaning is.
We ought to know if Christ Jesus was in Us, by the influences, graces, and indwelling of his Spirit, by his kingdom set up in tour hearts. Let us question our own souls; either we are true Christians, or we are deceivers. Unless Christ be in us by his Spirit, and power of his love, our faith is dead, and we are yet disapproved by our Judge.
My long walk with this secret sin of masturbation has been the worst part and regrets of my life, i gonna be frank and i i wanna make it to you my dear reader for whatever you see in me is a courageous, brave personality one who battled and won over an iniquity all praises and Glory to God.A m quite sure we do have all sorts of secret iniquities we are struggling with and when Hebrews 10:26 comes aboard we are left wondering how and when to stop,,you wont that is the bitter truth the gravest thing with this is that its habitual and kind of addictive and no matter how you promise yourself and swear you won’t till it takes a divine power and the intervention of the Most high God.
This is my story…I know you got yours and what keeps you from sharing it ain’t cowardice but normality.
It all started back in primary school, I was meek and stupid and rather backward but was very bright class-wise, I was in class seven still tiny and never near any puberty pressures and any news to do with relationship and sex was kind of foolish, one day on our way home a fellow pupil suggests that if you are bathing and you happen to rub your manhood with soapy hands hard you will feel good and kind of ejaculate..i never laughed so hard in my life for I felt like that was the most foolish and most funny or stupid thing ever said..I treated it as mere deceit and forgot about it altogether.
years later when i was already grown up and had my feelings with me i was having my bath and all that pupil said flashed back to me and i was like let me try what that bastard had suggested years earlier..i went through the preliminaries and wonder of wonders i felt good and everything happened just like he had said not knowing that this would be the struggle of my life years to come.
ii did all this in my free time,whenever i felt like am sexually aroused,whenever i was idle,but sooner rather than later it took the better of me in that one thing led to the other for pornography settled in and day and night i craved for this arousing videos and pictures just to feel satisfied after masturbation.lust set in and now i was a slave of my own doing.I got born again in 2014 knowing maybe this would all stop but i was wrong for i was already ensnared to the addiction of this..it would take days without doing it but sooner i would find myself doing it.i struggled each moment in that the feeling of pleasure was now gone and i was serving my addiction..i would look very smart when going to church on Sunday morning and one thing remained that i would have masturbated when bathing that morning..i was sick and tired and relying on my own strength each and every moment making promises and even praying but solely taking it upon myself that i would stop whenever i wanted to..i was already a slave and it would never take my own strength or might to free myself..i would sing in church,look so holy,pray in tongues and even lead church services but back home whenever i was alone, was doing the contrary..the bible says in 2nd Corinthians 13:5 that we should examine our self deeply whether we are in the faith and The book of Hebrews 10:26 continues to point out that Dear friends, if we deliberately continue sinning after we have received knowledge of the truth, there is no longer any sacrifice that will cover these sins..but all this was just like a hot knife cutting deep through my already wounded hurt,, i wanted a break brethren, I came face to face with Philippians 2:1313 For it is [not your strength, but it is] [a]God who is effectively at work in you, both to will and to work [that is, strengthening, energizing, and creating in you the longing and the ability to fulfill your purpose] for His good pleasure..He surely intervened and claimed my soul from the bondage of this iniquity.
my friend i know this is kind of shameful and outright downgrading but would i be in the bondage still it would be but it is never me, for this guys is new and has been made whole by the conditionally unconditional love of our Lord God and His son our redeemer.
you may be struggling yes we are all humans but that moment you understand that it aint you but someone bigger,more stronger,wiser and Holier then all struggles become futile,,He has lifted me from doom to light and i can only say Abbah Father.why struggle all alone yet He is fully here for you..how i wish that you realize that soon enough for the secret sin is more lethal that cancer for it will kill you physically and spiritually..that was him now i got to say i am new.
I searched through the Earth for something that could satisfy A peace for the hurt I had buried deep inside Knees on the floor, I finally found everything I needed You lifted my soul and opened up my eyesAnd I never knew anything lasts forever Till I found You, till I found You I never dreamed anything could be better Till I found You, till I found YouYou’re rewriting my story And I’m brand new like a morning Oh, I never knew anything lasts forever Till I found You..how i wish you too.
Psalms 121:1 I look up to the mountains; does my strength come from mountains? 2 No, my strength comes from God, who made heaven, and earth, and mountains. 3 He won’t let you stumble, your Guardian God won’t fall asleep.
In my former life as a presumed christian, first i grew in a church going family,was cultured into believing that was righteousness enough, then i took a step and knelt and went through the preliminaries of the so called salvation process for i thought i was awakened and was on the road to regeneration but it was self bound glory and self worth i was after,,i was baptized by water not the holy spirit.
i indulged myself in reading more about God nonetheless..i realized what i was reading or studying was to become vocal in arguments and to be in a position to at least get a point out when discussions arise,,I WAS WRONG.
I went as far as trying to convince myself that the salvation i got was futile and i was easily convinced by a friend who just stated 10 points why God ain’t there and i believed,I grew so valiant and zealous unto this course and even started studying into details how i would at least too argue out why He is not there but just mad people’s assumption.the articles were readily available and the arguments quite convincing.i was lost and lost into this so deeply that some things were at stake when i considered this course much more important.
much took place while i as in my own world of atheism and i would take a whole blog writing it out but that us not the message of this blog, the message of this blog is the reverse timeline creation, how do you get snapped out of your reverie and told that your comfort is futile and the course that you pursue is vanity. Hard it may be but that what selection and being an elect sounds like.Unconditional election (also known as unconditional grace) is a Reformed doctrine relating to Predestination that describes the actions and motives of God in eternity past, before he created the world, where he predestined some people to receive salvation, the elect, and the rest he left to continue in their sins and receive the just punishment, eternal damnation, for their transgressions of God’s law as outlined in the old and new Testaments of the Bible. God made these choices according to his own purposes apart from any conditions or qualities related to those persons
As i write this blog i am confident enough and sure enough that am one of the elects,for salvation is not something to be doubtful about you have to be sure,feel that confidence,be driven with that conviction that you have received the son-ship title.
The creation of the reverse timeline happened like this dear one,,as i was lost in my reverie, my stupid comfort zone n heading straight to hell because of my lack of knowledge(Hosea 4:6) an age mate of mine visited our church(place and time and name anonymous) he was a young zealous young man,He convinced me enough that i had a potential but not i the earthly things i was pursuing but as one of the elects,he shared with me a lot about salvation and it became clear to me that all the knowledge,the studies i did were rubbish , had i put the same effort in what is right before the Lord then i would have been far.
He convinced that all was not lost,we became accountability partners and to date i still cherish the fact that at least God used someone to reach out to someone who was so lost as me, i listened attentively to every thing and drunk hungrily the true words of Gospel and became as zealous as always only this time for the right course.
Brethren i think at least you have always convinced yourself that maybe the course you pursue is the right course but how right can you be if someone else questions it, i came to face the Holy spirit and drunk in its intervention and reign, can you proudly say that to someone else.
we convince ourselves that we got baptized or maybe we grow up in Christians family or maybe you think there is nothing like salvation,that is futile course,i came face to face with the baptism of the holy spirit and i yearn that at least someone too can make that testimony without shame or guilt.there is no salvation where the holy spirit is not involved.
you become saved or a son only when the holy spirit fruits show in your daily life,are you gentle enough,are you patient with life and its characters, do you love,are you faithful and obedient to the course you chose,are you hospitable and humble,are you joyful and you persevere in the midst of thus suffering that makes you strong in the walk of faith..
I was always craving and yearning for human approval and praise from men and i tried hard to always stay vocal in my argument,clearly i lacked everything that the holy spirit entails.
How i wish you too get that right and write or create your own reverse timeline and you will proudly say its a good feeling being and elect.
Ephesians 1:4-11 just as He chose us in Him before the foundation of the world, that we would be holy and blameless before Him In love He predestined us to adoption as sons through Jesus Christ to Himself, according to the kind intention of His will, to the praise of the glory of His grace, which He freely bestowed on us in the Beloved.read more. In Him we have redemption through His blood, the forgiveness of our trespasses, according to the riches of His grace which He lavished on us. In all wisdom and insight He made known to us the mystery of His will, according to His kind intention which He purposed in Him with a view to an administration suitable to the fullness of the times, that is, the summing up of all things in Christ, things in the heavens and things on the earth. In Him also we have obtained an inheritance, having been predestined according to His purpose who works all things after the counsel of His will,
am proud to be an elect so should you.and am glad God intervened into helping me create a reverse timeline.it aint easy pals,,the road is still rocky but the tough get going
I may not be given the chance to preach the Gospel n maybe I may not have the conviction of being a teacher of the word but above all that i will never be denied the chance to gratify my Lord,i will never be denied the chance thank the Lord of all hosts for this far He lights up the sky each night and He shows me He is with me,day by day i see light touching every object and the living thing n they become ablaze n full of life. I will always lift his name for i am living and to this very minute David instructs(Psalms 150:6) that let every thing that has breath praise the lord..his love and his mercy endures forever..at one time i would feel lost and out of place and i would feel like am several steps from His Grace and i feel like i wont be redeemed again,,but He silently whispers to my ears n tells me,”son its only one step back to my Grace and i believe this and it is all naked in front of my very presence. i beseech thee today to at least see it fit to gratify the Lord God for any whatever reasons. He gives breath,daily bread,shelter and wants that we as much need in our lives but the best thing God gives is the salvation we get from Jesus Christ death and Resurrection(1 peter 3:18). For you have been called for this purpose, since Christ also suffered for you, leaving you an example for you to follow in His steps, who committed no sin, nor was any deceit found in His mouth; and while being reviled, He did not revile in return; while suffering He uttered no threats, but kept entrusting Himself to him who judges righteously; and He Himself bore our sins in His body on the cross, that we might die to sin and live to righteousness; for by His wounds you were healed. For you were continually straying like sheep, but now you have returned to the Shepherd and Guardian of your souls there is no other way better that shows the Love of our Lord God than this, now that he gave His son to die for our sins,show gratitude by believing in Him,,respond to this Love by loving what you are accorded free of charge..NEVER RUN OUT OF GRATITUDE for its not our own doing that we are saved but because of God”s glory alone. regards
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If Not He is still good..yeah He still good..The ongoing tension of students unrest found me at the wrong place at the wrong time n it landed me little bit of trouble..I was beaten,battered and harrased infront of people yet i never took part in any of these.I took leave like the rest and found a place to be during tge unrest yet a policeman followed me from the latrine and accused me wrongfully of throwing stones..i never resisted when he called me not knowing he had uncouth things in mind..he arrested me n took me to the others who beaten me up n locked me in their van. One told me that my days with campus were over and that noone would help me..He was wrong for whenever he said that i just silently said.”you are wrong for am an ambassador of the most high God..he would fight for me..i was wrongly accused and the Lord knew it too..another one more sensible came on n looked at my hands and suggested that i dont look like one who could throw a stone..he asked me what coukd make me prove my innocence n i said God knows too n he asked me to show if I was born again..i just showed him my PUCU departmental families..he let me go..i do not take delight that i was beaten yet i was innocent but I delight in the fact that Lord is still good..He fought my battle for me today.. What i want to say that many too suffer yet they are not involved,,those who stay in the school has nowhere to go..those who were busy with classes can not go on because the satan is in control,,there are very many diplomacy ways of solving this unrest but violence has never n will never solve anything..there will always be consequences of whatever decisions we take..we yet suffer in the decisions and choices we didnt make..how i wish we pray hard for this institution..how i pray that this unrest be in one of our prayer item in this week prayers..the Lord will always show the way I believe..am not hurt so much i thank God but it sickens me when this goes on to disrupt the peace we would wish to have wherever we are…HE STILL GOOD
